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Things Got Heated In The Kitchen

I thought I would share today’s experience as it was rather odd and I don’t really know what to think about it, besides of the fact someone was having a really horrible day.

So a co-worker and I were thinking about a place to go for lunch and I had a mentioned a great Filipino food place that was not too far away from work. So we went there and arrived, the guy who works at the counter was very friendly and remembered me from the  last time I ate there which was about 2 weeks ago.

So my co-worker and I ordered and sat down at a table close to the entry way. We were having a great conversation about work and outside projects when not too long after we sat down, you could hear an argument in the kitchen, I mean this was a heated argument. No pun intended, but it got so heated everyone in the restaurant turned around to look towards the back to see if there were going to be any pots and pans flying through. My co-worker and I looked at each other and was ready to bolt out of there not knowing how mad the guy was in the back or how far he was going to take his anger.

The nice gentleman in the front counter looked distressed, worried and embarrassed. I felt horrible that all of this was happening especially knowing the nice man felt helpless. So about 5 minutes later the whole kitchen staff, three guys and a lady came out of the kitchen pushing out one of the guys, I am assuming he was the guy yelling.

Finally things calmed down a bit and most of the customers left during the quarrel. My co-worker and I stayed through it. After a while the man calmed down and left, that’s when we left to go back to the office. But before we left, I thanked the man at the counter for a wonderful meal, and that I would be back again soon. He smiled and said thank you very much and sorry for the scene. I said no worries, it seems like that guy is extremely passionate about cooking.

The only takeaway I have for this story is that it’s probably not good to be mad while cooking or near food. Cooking is energy and anger and frustration will give off its own energy as well. Not to say the food will be tainted with evil, but it probably wasn’t given the ┬álove and attention it could have received. I don’t think that cook made our food as a woman brought it out but she wasn’t part of the 3 men and a lady from the argument.

Overall I’m just glad no one got hurt. The whole incident was bizarre but interesting at the same time. Just thought I share my experience for today.

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Broke Up With Anxiety, Still Tries To Visit On Occasion.

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Photo by Clem Onojeghuo on Unsplash

I broke up with anxiety and it still tries to visit.
But I don’t answer the door anymore.

Anxiety and depression has been something I have struggled with for many years, all starting in my 20’s when I learned that the world was not safe and I was no good. I can’t really tell you where that came from, it could have been the environment I lived in or my belief systems from growing up where I didn’t fit in the world because of basically everything about me was wrong.

Once I reached my 30’s, my perspective about how I perceived myself shifted. There were times where I felt like life was finally getting better. I was growing up allot more and I realized that had more control to figure a way to make life better. Seeking to get outside of my self and be around like minded people. Meditation helped me through as I didn’t want to take pills or antidepressants. I figured I had to try everything to work with Anxiety and get to the root issue of why I was having episodes.

Then my 40’s hit and I was in a time of my life where I was supposed to be blissfully happy when I found out I was pregnant at the ripe young age of 39. The feeling of bliss did occur, although I was sick through the whole thing, puking, nausea, heart burn, gas and acid reflux as the cherry on top. I made it through the 9 months and I was happy to be pregnant and also very happy when my son was born.

Then there was a dark period I will not forget, the experience of getting a c-section and not getting that storybook moment with the baby on your chest for bonding. I remember being cut open and my baby getting checked out and prepped. I remember being disappointed that I couldn’t have him natural.

The feeling of failing as a new mom carried on for almost 10 months. My hormones where out of order due to being drugged up on pain meds and then my body trying to adjust after all of that and being pregnant. Believe me, that was an experience I wish on no one.

I did seek out help and got 2 types of healing, one was a traditional counselor and the other was reiki energetic healing which I still do today. Seeking help got me through some tough times and I am glad I did.

Life does get hard at times no matter how much you try to stay positive. The reality is it’s impossible to feel uplifted and happy all of the time. You will go through tough times, you will experience some form of depression, it is life.

We all have things we wish didn’t happen to us, we all have been through allot of shit one way or another. But for my experiences, growth was necessary and looking back on all the things I thought was horrible was actually a deep learning experience and maybe a soul experience to grow or have a better understanding about myself. I am a good person, great mom, talented, worthy of love, and beautiful.

Now that my son, who is almost 3 and I am thankful I have him in my life and I fight the life battle for him. He will go through many challenges in his life and I will too. But he will know he is never alone and never will be. None of us really are.

When anxiety does try to push it’s way through, I take time to understand the feeling and the issue that’s causing it. Look at it from the outside in and shift the way I perceive that situation our thought. Then I add some music, meditation and a good laugh to feel better.

Thank you for reading my story. I hope this it helps someone. If you need help, seek it. Someone out there really wants to help you.

Take care and have a great week everyone!

 

 

3 Steps to Feel The Fear and Move Forward

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Fear is one of many things we humans all have in common. We have experienced it more than once in our lives and we will without a doubt experience it again. But how we handle our fears depends on the situation presented to us. We do have choices. A choice could be to feel the fear and let it paralyze you to make a decision on something or it can fire you up to take action. Either way, you must decide how to handle what’s presented to you.

Your interpretation of the outcome may be blown way out of proportion because the mind turns on survival mode instinct to retreat from an experience, event or something that may cause harm.

There are many ways to help you overcome fear, here are 3 simple ways I have tried to help with fear.

  1. Take the fear for a walk. Getting outside or taking a walk to put your mind at ease will help you focus on what’s important. Then you can decide how to handle the situation in a better. Don’t fight the fear, feel it and acknowledge it. Then focus on a solution to the problem or make a decision to act on something with a clearer perspective.
  2. Don’t keep it to yourself. When you share your feelings with a trusted friend or family member you will feel so much better to get the worry or fear off of your chest. Talking about it with someone can help you put your situation back in perspective.
  3. Fear it and go for it. If you sit around over analyzing an outcome that hasn’t happened, and most likely won’t, then you have wasted all of your energy worrying about it. Let’s say if your fear really came true, at that moment you will probably react to the outcome much differently than what you pictured in your head. Unless it’s a life or death emergency than by all means feel the fear, but if it’s something you can handle, you will power through it!

 

I hope these tips helped and remember to do the best you can every day!